Crossword and Sneeze

I'm sick with a head cold...I imagine it'll turn into a chest cold before the week is over. I sucked it in and came to work anyway. I think my boss enjoys my crankiness. Which is great, since her son causes it most of the time.

Over the last week, I watch things move into place and the rescue move in to accommodate. When will they learn? A misconception on their part, but no way or reason to tell otherwise. I don't feel sorry for anyone that doesn't know. As I harness the anger and incredulity, I realize I would be that person. I'd say "I told you so." I'd shake my head and walk away, leave them standing feeling helpless to the storm.

Do you know where I have been? Do you understand that sanity rides on the back of ONE bird in the whole sky?

I suppose I could hold my hands over my mouth forever if it meant protecting my son.

I'll leave you with a song, Fiona Apple's

Never is a Promise
You'll never see-
the courage i know
its colors' richness
won't appear within your view
i'll never glow,
the way that you glow
Your presence dominates the judgements made on you

But as the scenery grows,
I see in different lights
the shades and shadows
undulate in my perception
my feelings swell and stretch
i see from greater heights
i understand what I am still to proud to mention
-to you

You'll say you understand
but you don't understand
you'll say you'd never give up
seeing eye to eye
but never is a promise
and you can't afford to lie

you'll never touch
these things that i hold
the skin of my emotions
lies beneath my own
you'll never feel
the heat of this soul
my fever burns me deeper than i've ever shown
-to you

you'll say don't fear your dreams
it's easier than it seems
you'll say you'd never let me fall
from hopes so high
but never is a promise
and you can't afford to lie

you'll never live the life that i live
i'll never live the life
that wakes me in the night
you'll never hear the message i give
you'll say it looks as though i might
give up this fight

but as the scenary grows,
isee in different lights
the shades and shadows
undulate in my perception
my feelings swell and stretch
i see from greater heights
i realize what i am now too smart to mention
-to you

you'll say you understand,
you'll never understand
i'll say i'll never wake up
knowing how or why
i don't know what to believe in
you don't know who i am
you'll say i need appeasing
when i start to cry
but never is a promise
and i'll never need a lie